My partner (wife for all intents and purposes) of 18 years has become severely disabled and lovemaking is now painful for her. She needs me too much for me to ever leave her and I would never do such a thing. But that leaves me out in the cold. Looking for a female friend, benefits optional. I don't expect it, nor will I pressure for it, but if the friendship heads in that direction I will go with the flow. I won't stop it.